Desperate or Stupid

Im goin with desperate for now......I am so desperate to help out this friend of mine. I love her to pieces, and I dont know why, but I do. She cuts and hurts herself and just cant stop. I know addiction, Ive been there, even in the cutting arena. I want so bad to help her, I went as far as to ask her if cutting myself in front of her would make her stop. A little contradictory I know, but it helped me. I dont think Im gonna do it, but if she told me that would fix it, I would, so fast. I know its not what others want, but my heart is killing to help her. Im not God, but Im trying so hard to lead her to him, so very hard. Its so much work, but I cant keep throwing her away like I have. Im not in a position to do that. I dont know exactly what she needs, but Im gonna experiment to find out. I know God wants me to be friends with her, and thats what Im gonna do. Because every time we stop being friends and become friends again, its like starting from square one. Shes not a project, but my commitment as a friend.