I have made promises and promises have been made to me, and today I reflected on that, still dont know what good it will do. First of all the promise I made to the Lord, to follow in his way, and die to myself each day. I dont know if I have been doing that right. It is definately a hard task.
Secondly the promise Peter made to me, to be by my side the rest of my life, I have made the same to him...But away from him I feel a slight different person. Am I, or am I just too hard on myself? Is it bad I want to better myself for him? I could almost hear him say, "you shouldnt better yourself for me but for God" There is when I began to make an argument inside my head. I do wanna better myself for God, but is it wrong to use Peter as a motivation. Are my priorities not in order? Do I simply need to just stop thinking and let God work, or has my effort dwindled to none? It is all very hard, and yet easy at the same time to think about. I am in love with my God and in love with my man. Peter is a blessing and I want to be the woman he sees, with or without him. Im not perfect but I think sometimes I try too hard for that. Other times I fret over my sins or misguidedness.
Ive been drawing a picture last couple days, its really coming together, I think I'll finish it tonight. Im pleased with it so far.
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