Life has been stressful lately, school, relationships. Its not a lot, but that's my life right now. If I had a job, that'd prolly be part of my stress too. I thought I had an interview yesterday for Wild Waves, but then they called back right after I got out of school and said "oh her interview isn't today, but we'll call back" uhg. Oh well.
You know I cant wait to graduate, I'm a little behind right now, but I know I'm gonna make it. I have to. I'm scared, but hopeful, that's been my catch-phrase lately. I don't know if I will be walking because Ive missed so many days, but all I'm worried about is my diploma. I'm getting the gown anyway, I can just take pics in it. Ive been unique from the start, what a way to end school right? XD.
Me and Peter, whoo, I don't know, we've been having our issues, but I love him so much. I just wanted to slow down, he didn't take it well. I think he's doing better today though. We are trying to really make our relationship a more Christ centered relationship. I don't know why but the right way always seems to be the most painful in the beginning. Sometimes he drives me crazy, but I care about him so much, and I wouldn't do this if I didn't feel it was Gods will. Its also a bit of a relief. I'm not ready for official engagement, maybe Peter is, but our lives aren't ready for it.
Relationships are never easy. If they were, life would be incredibly boring. I came up with an analogy/metaphor for relationships a while ago that I rather like. Relationships are like flying a two-pilot airplane. Friendships are easy, just flying low and slow and having fun together. But actual deep relationships have turbulent winds, high altitudes, loops and spins. Every once in a while it stalls and begins falling. But if both pilots want to be in that plane with each other badly enough, you can always pull up at the last minute. It just takes an equal amount of willpower from both people. Push harder than your partner, or don't put forth as much effort as they are, and the balance is broken, the plane goes down fast. You two need to find a common ground, a compromise, for where you want your relationship to go. Maybe if you don't want to be "engaged," you can just go steady. I'm sure he'd be fine with that as long as your happy and committed to him.
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