So lately Ive noticed a lot of things about myself. Last night really showed me a lot. I had an epic meltdown. Like nothing thats happend before. I noticed that Im a lot stronger than I first thought. Ive hit lower and lower points, and just when I think it cant get worse, it does. God didnt make me rock solid by far, but he gave me the ability to pick myself up. Depression isnt an easy condition to fight niether is anxiety. I figure I should stop fighting and let God handle it, but its hard to stop fighting. Im a very independant person, and I like to do things myself.
Mom is making me an appointment to go to a psyche doctor. Im starting to regret telling her. I dun wanna talk to a stranger. Im not excited about this. I wasnt the first time I freaked out and Im not now. I dont want to have to explain my life again. I hate doing that part. *sigh*
Jesus I love you. -love your princess
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