Acceptance

why do I have a hard time with it, I usually come to the conclusion that I see something in someone else, that I have in common, and have felt bad about before. So I make them feel bad. Its so wrong, so wrong, but God I dont know. Love is hard work, and I realize Im not gonna find a perfect man. I got a perfectly good man right by my side, that I think I make feel like shit sometimes. Im so frikin lucky and I just cant/wont bring myself to fall madly in love with him. I love him, just not the way I want to yet. FML. Its not his fault its mine, its not like I dun wanna be with him. In fact I just want to fall in love more.